I mean I totally agree with your advice in logic. But I guess that’s the problem and that’s why I’m here. So I can hear it from other people. Because you know the heart wants what the heart wants and it has little or nothing to do with the logic a lot of the time. But I appreciate your advice. And it’s what I hear from the people around me and so I know it’s probably totally accurate. But just because they head knows it’s true doesn’t make the heart hurt less.

I guess it’s like that thing that people say. Which probably means it’s bullshit. But anyways… If you love something let it go if it comes back to you at yours forever. I thought that the story we were living. Her sister has mental illness also and lives with the family in Vietnam. People don’t recognize mental illness in Vietnam. No medication and no therapy. Her sisters life is really sad. She got married off to the neighbor, the farmer boy to get rid of her. Thinking that that’s the life that my ex could’ve had, there’s no way I could’ve allow that to happen.

She is beautiful, and we were in love. When things were good we had a really nice life together. She helped with my kids. We support each other through school. This girls my soulmate brother. My best friend. You don’t give up on people you love because they’re broken. That’s how I felt and how I still feel.

You’re absolutely right. Before I got married my coworkers and my boss got together for dinner. And they all encouraged me not to go through with marrying this woman. Taking care of somebody with mental illness is a difficult task. But I’m like that type of person that wants to help people even if it’s at my own demise. At the time it felt like it would be not a noble thing to do to leave somebody that I loved because they had this flaw in their mental. It seemed like a despicable thing to do. So I moved forward with marrying her because I loved her. And I wanted to do the correct thing.