Not what you're asking exactly but what you're describing reminds me of how Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria makes me feel. I have ADHD and this feeling is a big barrier to my happiness. If you can afford to, it might improve your quality of life to get into mental health treatment. My life changed for the better with treatment, and while that feeling isn't gone, it is less prevalent.
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Not what you're asking exactly but what you're describing reminds me of how Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria makes me feel. I have ADHD and this feeling is a big barrier to my happiness. If you can afford to, it might improve your quality of life to get into mental health treatment. My life changed for the better with treatment, and while that feeling isn't gone, it is less prevalent.