thank u! I m also a STEM grad.

not Dr. yet, it was candidacy. Defense a few years from now but thanks!

>How many of those pills do you plan to take for your next presentation

wise men don't repeat their mistakes, they make newer ones.

take care stranger.

>We'd have cut you off, tbqh

Wish someone had done that.

>Were you getting questions as you went along

Nopes but after the presentation, the Q&A went for around 35-40minutes too, that went well though.

I hear you and can obviously reciprocate. Wish u all the luck in the future.

> And I totally feel you, for the first 4 years of my thesis I had issues with worrying about others thoughts of me until an upper year student heard me talk and said to me "what makes you convinced they are spending time thinking about that aspect about you, rather than something else.

Yes, and I have started to realize that this is a recurring pattern in my behavior and in the way I carry myself in my day-to-day life.

> WAY TO GO ACHIEVING CANDIDACY

Thank you!!!!

Thank you!!

I needed some outside perspective, that's why posted.

>Mine lasted at least 2 hrs

really, was it candidacy or defence?

> , but next time I would recommend not altering your state of mind with medications/substances, the risk is too great.

yeah, some lessons learned for the long term but for the short term, I really need to get rid of this embarrassment somehow. I am constantly thinking about what others r thinking of me.

They didn't say anything except that one of the jury members remarked that this was the longest candidacy talk he has ever been to.

No one watches the video but some of my colleagues were present, so they have something funny to talk about me I guess and I am left with this embarrassing memory.

yeah, some lessons learned.

>I’m wondering why you would double up on your medication before a key presentation if you’d never done it before. Seems silly.

Anxiety makes us do silly stuff and more so the impulsive desire to get rid of it.