They were also 25-30 year smokers

I know you're realising you fucked up, but you really fucked up. You came very close to killing yourself and your family. I hope it weighs heavy. You should start seriously considering changing your lifestyle. If you were in my family and you did that, and my kids were in the house, you are never coming back until you are years sober.

I've lost 3 friends to weed. I know that sounds stupid, but they were all long term smokers, 2 developed some kind of psychosis and killed themselves (within a week of each other) and the 3rd drove into a tree, without a seatbelt and died a few weeks later. It's no coincidence they were all heavy smokers in their mid 40s with 25 years of daily use behind them.

I don't gaf who laughs at me for saying it but long term weed habit can cause real harm. You find me a long term weed smoker with normal brain function and tell me it's perfectly fine...