kainprime82

kainprime82 t1_jaazfsp wrote

They really are. My mom died from cancer 2 years ago. Sometimes, during a grief induced spiral, I'll find myself blaming myself for her cancer. It was ovarian cancer, and I'll get on this bender about how there's something wrong with me (I've had emotional problems since early childhood, depression and such) and that must have infected my mom and ultimately killed her.

I KNOW it's completely illogical, but in those down moments, I convince myself otherwise.

Grief is a fucking beast man.

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