You're doing great, friend. Your level of awareness is something to appreciate. You'll go as far as you can imagine yourself going! And along the way, as you do things YOUR way, living a life according to your terms and values, you'll find people who appreciate you.
You are under no obligation to be the same kind of person you were five minutes ago, and nobody can tell you who you are.

It is a rock song, yes.

Starting the bodyweight-program tomorrow morning! Looks great! Thanks for your work.