I get the impression that you lost your mojo, your thrill/desire & no motivation to find a new one. It's all about perspective. Kinda of fake it til you make it. I wake up every morning & count all my blessings. Even if i don't feel like it. Really changed my outlook The good is there, we just have to take the time to find it

Wow. His eyes & face seem to reflect a hard life. So much more than many of us will see in a lifetime.