nomorbutthole2022

nomorbutthole2022 t1_iy12qdt wrote

Im 53 years old and have experienced the worst year of my existence.. ive gone from near death this spring to wishing i could die now...i lost my elder dog of 17 2 months ago and last week i had to put down my 2 year old pup.. epilepsy killed him. i cannot get through a day without super anxiety, crying and just hiding to avoid everybody... because i almost died i now have an eliostomy bag ive had to learn to deal with.. in a week i go in for another major surgery where they are going to take more parts... i lost my business i lost my license for business i cant work and not far from being homeless... eating and a shower dont do anything for me... how can i get past this?.. antidepressants dont work... neither does God,pot, alcohol, and just about anything else taken to numb oneself... seems im at the end of my rope

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