Alright damn sorry

But in another 5 years you don’t want to be looking back on this moment thinking “I could have gotten so much more done 5 years ago if only I hadn’t been spending so much time worried about the missed opportunities from 5 years before that.”

When I was 28 I spent my time pining for the days when I was 22, and when I was 22 I spent my time pining for when I was 17, and now I spend my time pining for when I was 28. Do you see the problem?

The solution is mindfulness and living in the present. The past is in the past, it just is what it is. The current moment is the only moment that exists, and will ever exist. What’s an opportunity you can seize NOW that you won’t have in another 5 years?

I actually found this very helpful because my depression comes with a lot of shame and guilt which depletes my motivation because it feels like “I’ve messed up so many times, other people are so much further than me already, I’m useless so why bother trying?” And one great thing I’ve found to combat that guilt is gratitude and mindfulness. I might not be successful in business yet but I have achieved a wonderful home life that I didn’t have before, so that’s proof that I can in fact get the things I want if I try hard enough.

And another thing that’s been helpful is actively reminding myself that it’s NOT a competition. My friend getting her dream job doesn’t say anything about my work ethic. That girl I went to high school with posting her beautiful wedding on Instagram has no effect on when I’ll get married. That stuff isn’t about me. I do understand that a competitive attitude works for some people and that’s great! But it doesn’t work for everyone and sometimes it’s helpful to just be in the moment and realize I don’t have the worst life in the world, it’s actually pretty great and I’m really lucky so I don’t need to stay in bed beating myself up over my failures. Anyway thanks for this post, you’ve changed my day from a depression-in-bed day to a get-shit-done day 💕