I have a hard time feeling bad for your cheating ass.

Found the one uncomfortable with their own masculinity.

Pretending to be a different person online is weird? Does the mean you are comfortable with your mom or your boss reading your reddit history?

For experimenting with their identity online? That's a shitty thing to say to anyone, especially a kid.

I get that you don't want to hurt him. It's up to you if you want to come clean. Either way, I'd give the money back. It's probably not best to meet an older person over the internet.