Yeah I didn’t do it out of spite or revenge or anything. I guess it’s like I’ve been so frustrated with the situation plus sexually frustrated tbh so I kind of just gave up and surrendered for a bit

It’s honestly super complicated but it’s a combo of timing, distance, and just our lives not lining up. I know it’s weird and it sucks but I just have a gut feeling that he’s supposed to be in my life right now and I can’t just cut him off. We’ve talked about it and set boundaries and just hang out as friends these days but the feelings won’t go away. And he hadn’t kissed me for like 6 months until like 2 weeks ago when we were hanging