You are approaching consciousness through logic, there is a deeper sense in which it can be understood. But you have to let go of drilled in mental models of sense making. It is something that exists outside yourself and wholly within your self. It's highly paradoxical and impossible to describe objectively. You are scratching the surface of an insanely deep question that is knowable and unknownable. Take your time, live your life, engage with other living beings directly. It's not something that you can describe in language, or with art or action but all at the same time you can. Take a deep breath and sit with it as long as you can, then do it again and again and again. A few years from now you will understand completely and not at all.

Does novelai not count?

My ocd gets the best of me thinking about this.

Ignore me, I'm giving you a hard time, I'm getting old, good advice overall. I hadn't heard of characterai I'm going to check that out.

Looking at your phone while talking to someone is rude. Don't zoom so far out you forget your manners sir or madam. :).