I'm happy that you're feeling great! I will do my best and try to meditate a few minutes every day.

Thank you very much, I will look into online sessions I think. You are absolutely right, it makes absolutely no sense to try and control things I simply cannot control. Most of the time, nothing bad happens, it's just my mind going places. But it affects my mood, my sleep, my daily life and I absolutely want to change those patterns. I know I can, I just don't know how. So thanks again for taking time to share your thoughts, it helped!

I feel you. Hope it get's better!

I know that one from when I used to have panic attacks as a teenager (not anymore). Might try it again, it was very useful back then. Thank you for reminding me!

Unfortunatly I need absolute silence to even try to fall asleep. I am very sensitive to noise. And in that silence I think the most.

I admire people who are able to do that, I'm just not one of them. I worry a lot about small things, nothing does ever not matter. I think about things no one probably ever thinks of, and I always await the worst outcome possible. I just do not have the right mindset, I believe.

I actually do, but probably not often enough, I rarely find the time. A lame excuse, I know...

I try to escape into a story, a memory or thought that made me happy. Helps for a bit, but not longlasting so far. Thank you very much for your words!

Thank you for your thoughts, I appreciate it very much and will try to create new paths! It is not dark thoughts, just things that are not in my control... how high will a certain bill be, will they overcharge me, what can I do against that, should I maybe consider talking to a lawyer.. I even have discussions in my mind that are not likely to ever happen. It's exhausting. Online therapy is also not a thing in my country, therapy around here is for people with severe mental health issues like depression or severe anxiety, which I have in a very mild form, but I consider myself mostly okay. Talking to someone would be great, though.

I am familiar with those techniques, but can't really keep them up for longer than a few minutes. But I will work on it. Thank you!

I learned how to drive when I was 16 (driving is legal here at the age of 17). The basics I got in an hour (stick shift), practice makes you better. I think after maybe 3 or 4 lessons I would have been able to drive someone to a hospital. Can only speak for myself, though. If you learn to drive a car with automatic transmission, it would be much faster.

Ask someone with an old car to teach you somewhere in the countryside. Depending on where you live and how common it is, learn to drive stick. So you know in case of an emergency.