“Pro-lifers” only protect children before they’re born; then they don’t care if those kids get shot in school or starve on the street.

What do you do if you used to be suicidal for so long that suicidal ideation becomes an automatic thought?

I have no real desire to hurt myself, but every time something bad happens to me, my brain goes “What if you [suicide method]?” It’s more than call of the void—it’s a specific and very detailed method using items that aren’t necessarily nearby. (Literally the same thoughts I had when I was actively suicidal.)

Thing is, I don’t want to hurt myself. I like living! But I can’t tell my therapist and risk being hospitalized—if there’s even a 1% chance of that happening, I’ll put up with the thoughts instead. They’re not a danger to me, just stressful and annoying. Is there anything I could research?

Awesome! 🧡

No, I think it’s that brain is always analyzing various choices. For example, if I’m looking at a restaurant menu and craving pizza, my brain might ponder, What if I get a burger? It doesn’t mean I secretly want a burger, or that pizza is harmful; it’s just a thing that happens.

Just wanna emphasize what the other commenter said.